dccusource:

I don’t feel very manly. I don’t feel rugged and strong and capable in
real life, not how I imagine a man ought to be. So I seek it, to mimic
it and maybe understand it, or maybe to draw it into my own reality.
People who are scary, they terrify me, but I can imitate them. I’m not a
fighter. I’m a petite little bourgeois boy from London. I don’t fight, I
mimic.